My first born son Zachary, what a joy and a mystery. He took his own life December 25, 2013. A month has gone by but I don’t recall where it went. I am lost, hollow, numb yet hurting. I never knew this kind of pain existed. The world is full of heartache and disappointment but this is new to me. To ache at a level that I can’t even describe. This blog is intended to be my outlet; my journey through grief. And it will be through grief, as I have learned there is no way around it, under it, or over it. One must go through it even as unbearable as it seems.